I lost control a little bit. I fell off the wagon the past two days pretty bad. I overate yesterday and today by a lot, unfortunately. While it’s not as bad as I used to have it, it’s still not pleasant and disappointing. However, I am not disappointed in myself as much as I used to be. I am only human. I have to remember that I am in control of my life and my habits.
I figured out what My current trigger food is that led me to fall off: nut butter and honey. The combination together actually. Of course, sugar. Of course. Which just shows me how good of an idea it is to try to reduce sugar intake as much as possible from my life. While it might be hard, I can clearly see sugar is the culprit behind my failures and the temptation. I feel like once I have that combo, everything else falls out the window. I don’t know if it’s because it tastes so freaking good or if it’s because it’s so much sugar but it does it for me. It’s been hard to be in control ever since that first bite yesterday.
I’ve messed up countless times in my life but I can see the reason behind it. I think writing about it will help me regain control. I hope so. I will always appreciate any tips about regaining control from you guys too! This is what I always struggle with the most. Its not saying no to bad foods. It’s when I eat the wrong thing and it causes a small loss of control, the difficulty is always at the point where I regain back the control I lost and reset my mind back to thinking about all healthy and smart and portions.
PS. I was searching some inspiration for staying fit and on track and stumbled upon some pro ana blogs. Really sad. It really makes me sad to see these girls posting their daily food diaries in which they burn more calories than they eat. One girl’s calorie deficit was -1950. Crazy. I feel sad and I hope they get help 🙁 I would not want to ever be in that situation and I feel for everyone who has had to go through that, I know it’s very common. While I have had an ED-NOS it’s not as extreme as anorexia or bulimia.